My boys and the essence of a song

This is going to be a very boring post.

You know how you have those songs which, at times in your life, completely and aptly describe your situation? Well, there's this beautiful song by Fiona Apple called 'Shadowboxer', that I used to love. I listened to it nonstop and then suddenly grew tired of it. One day, recently, I was in the shower and playing music on my oh-so-cool phone and loudly singing along while washing my hair, and this song suddenly pops up. I'd completely forgotten that it was still on my playlist on the phone and it gave me a little frisson of happiness (or something like it) to listen to it again.

And as the song played and I sang along, I realised how perfectly, incredibly apt it was regarding not 1 or 2 but 3 men in my life! I empathise with every line in the song right now. Which is why I'm so enamoured by this idea, because there have been many songs that I have identified with but there are always some lines or words that do not gel for me. This one does.

So here are the words and I'll try to link the song as well.

Shadowboxer - Fiona Apple

Once my lover, now my friend
What a cruel thing to pretend
What a cunning way to condescend
Once my lover, now my friend

Oh, you creep up like a cloud
And you set my soul at ease
Then you let your love abound
And you bring me to my knees

Oh, its evil,babe,the way you let your grace enrapture me
When, well, you know, I'd be insane -
To ever let that dirty game recapture me

You made me a shadowboxer, baby
I wanna be ready for what you do
I been swinging all around me
cause I don't know when you're gonna make your move

Oh, your gaze is dangerous
And you fill your space so sweet
If I let you get too close,
You'll set your spell on me

So, darlin', I just wanna say
Just in case I don't come through
I was on to every play
I just wanted you

But, oh, its so evil, my love,
The way you've no reverence to my concern
So, Ill be sure to stay wary of you, love,
To save the pain of once my flame and twice my burn

You made me a shadowboxer, baby
I wanna be ready for what you do
I been swinging all around me
cause I don't know when you're gonna make your move

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oVpHFLF2gNY

Here you go.

And as for the boys, you know who you are.