My boys and the essence of a song

This is going to be a very boring post.

You know how you have those songs which, at times in your life, completely and aptly describe your situation? Well, there's this beautiful song by Fiona Apple called 'Shadowboxer', that I used to love. I listened to it nonstop and then suddenly grew tired of it. One day, recently, I was in the shower and playing music on my oh-so-cool phone and loudly singing along while washing my hair, and this song suddenly pops up. I'd completely forgotten that it was still on my playlist on the phone and it gave me a little frisson of happiness (or something like it) to listen to it again.

And as the song played and I sang along, I realised how perfectly, incredibly apt it was regarding not 1 or 2 but 3 men in my life! I empathise with every line in the song right now. Which is why I'm so enamoured by this idea, because there have been many songs that I have identified with but there are always some lines or words that do not gel for me. This one does.

So here are the words and I'll try to link the song as well.

Shadowboxer - Fiona Apple

Once my lover, now my friend
What a cruel thing to pretend
What a cunning way to condescend
Once my lover, now my friend

Oh, you creep up like a cloud
And you set my soul at ease
Then you let your love abound
And you bring me to my knees

Oh, its evil,babe,the way you let your grace enrapture me
When, well, you know, I'd be insane -
To ever let that dirty game recapture me

You made me a shadowboxer, baby
I wanna be ready for what you do
I been swinging all around me
cause I don't know when you're gonna make your move

Oh, your gaze is dangerous
And you fill your space so sweet
If I let you get too close,
You'll set your spell on me

So, darlin', I just wanna say
Just in case I don't come through
I was on to every play
I just wanted you

But, oh, its so evil, my love,
The way you've no reverence to my concern
So, Ill be sure to stay wary of you, love,
To save the pain of once my flame and twice my burn

You made me a shadowboxer, baby
I wanna be ready for what you do
I been swinging all around me
cause I don't know when you're gonna make your move

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oVpHFLF2gNY

Here you go.

And as for the boys, you know who you are.

3 AM Blues

I'm almost violently ill with emotion.
but still happy, sad, pleased, amused, longing
drowning in the pool of feelings,
gladly slipping away into the beyond,
my body and a part of my mind reacts normally,
and the rest of me is a purple and silver,
gauzy dress floating, in layers,
all around me, like a tent, covering me,
allowing my arms to slip through the sleeves,
my head to push through the neck of the dress,
draping me, becoming me,
but is that who I really am?
is that who I'm meant to be?
or who I long to be?
or will I wake up to another tomorrow?

The Ranting Room

In my dream house, I have a soundproof room which has one padded wall which I can bang my head against when I'm angry.

It also has a lot of old furniture, made out of different kinds of woods, (some that break easily and others that dont) that I can throw around and stamp on.

It has a soft comfy bed, lots of fatty things to eat, a HUMONGOUS box of tissues, and tons of squashy pillows that I lay against and cry my heart out.

It has sheaves of paper and pen that I can scribble on and a big waste paper basket to throw my work in after I'm done ranting.

It has a huge fireplace in the middle so I can burn things to my hearts content and let out the pyromaniac in me to roast..err...i mean roost.

It has a bevy of excercise machines so that by working out I can let out my anger/frustration AND become thin and sexy.




It DEFINITELY has a computer with a fast internet speed and tons of space to store music, so that I can play it at full blast while ranting on my blog or to my friends.









Some days are beautiful. But there come some days in a persons life when they want a room like this one to let out their anger and disappointment at life.

Pretty Lyrics

These are the lyrics from a bunch of songs that I really like the tune and lyrics of. I'll try and get translations for the non-English ones and edit it in later.

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Stones taught me to fly, Love taught me to lie, Life taught me to die, So its not hard to fall, When you float like a cannonball.

Cannonball - Damien Rice (The L Word soundtrack)
*
Ya vas a ver como van sanando, Poco a poco tus heridas, Ya vas a ver como va, La misma vida decantar la sal que sobra en mar...

Dia De Enero - Shakira


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I cant do the talk like the talk on tv, But I can do a love song like the way its meant to be, I cant do everything but I'd do anything for you, Cant do anything except be in love with you, And all I do is miss you and the way we used to be, All I do is keep the beat and bad company, All I do is kiss you through the bars of a rhyme, (Julie)________, I'd do the stars with you, anytime.

Romeo And Juliet - Dire Straits


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Y yo estoy aquí, borracho y loco, y mi corazón idiota siempre brillara, y yo te amare, te amare por siempre.

Lamento Boliviano (Bachata Remix)


*
Youve already won me over in spite of me
Dont be alarmed if I fall head over feet
Dont be surprised if I love you for all that you are
I couldnt help it
Its all your fault.

Head Over Feet - Alanis Morissette


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Hay mi amor perdido dónde estarás
No puedo aguantar esta soledad
Qué será que de mi vida
Qué será si tú no estas amor
Día a día voy perdiendo el control
Tú no sabes cómo duele tu adiós
Tengo herida el alma y el corazón
Porque tú no estás.

Mi Amor Perdido - Andy Aguilera feat. Divino


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Hoy recuerdo la niña aquella la que pasaba todas las materias
La que mitad de quinto se fue y nunca mas volvio
Yo te veo y no me lo creo mira que bien te ha tratado el tiempo
Y al mirate me dan deseos de hacerte reina de mi reino
Te ves perfecta me ha dejado alusionado tu belleza
Tu corazon no tiene dueño no me mientas no me quieras causar esa tristeza
Princesa dime si aun quieres ser mi reina

Princesa - Frank Reyes


*
And know that if I knew
All of the answers I would
Not hold them from you
Know all of the things that i'd know
We told each other, there is no other way

No Other Way - Jack Johnson


*
When the whole world fits inside of your arms
Don't really need to pay attention to the alarm

Banana Pancakes - Jack Johnson


*
I'd have sworn
That with time
Thoughts of you
Would leave my head
I was wrong
And I find
Just one thing
Makes me forget
Red, red wine
Stay close to me
Dont let me be alone
Its tearing apart
My blue, blue heart

Red, Red Wine - Neil Diamond


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Tere Khayaalon Mein Uljha Rahi Yoon Jaise Ki Maala Mein Dhaaga

Phoolon Ke Rang Se - Kishore Kumar(I think)


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Missed the Saturday dance
Heard they crowded the floor
Couldn't bear it without you
Don't get around much anymore

Don't Get Around Much Anymore - Nat King Cole



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Mona Lisa, Mona Lisa, men have named you
Youre so like the lady with the mystic smile
Is it only cause youre lonely they have blamed you?
For that Mona Lisa strangeness in your smile?

Do you smile to tempt a lover, Mona Lisa?
Or is this your way to hide a broken heart?
Many dreams have been brought to your doorstep
They just lie there and they die there
Are you warm, are you real, Mona Lisa?
Or just a cold and lonely lovely work of art?

Mona Lisa - Nat King Cole